
If I Had a Wife
If I had a wife,
I’d be further by now.
Not because I’m more capable,
but because history has proven how easy it is to climb
when someone else is holding the ladder steady.
If I had a wife,
I’d have it easy.
“Whispers From My Heart” is a sacred space where I pour the unspoken — my healing, my growing, my letting go, my loving. Each poem and love letter is a soft echo of the woman I am becoming: brave, blooming, and beautifully unfinished. These are the whispers born from my deepest battles, my quietest prayers, and my brightest hopes. If you find yourself here, know that you are not alone. Welcome to the parts of me that once hurt, now healing — and the parts of you they just might soothe too.

If I had a wife,
I’d be further by now.
Not because I’m more capable,
but because history has proven how easy it is to climb
when someone else is holding the ladder steady.
If I had a wife,
I’d have it easy.

So I speak this out loud:
More orders are coming.
More abundance is flowing.
More answered prayers are on their way.
I am no longer surviving, I’m expanding.
My hands are blessed. My business is blessed.
My voice is heard. My work is seen.
I am in overflow now.

I loved the way clients’ eyes lit up
when they saw their orders,
how they would whisper “this is perfect,”
and rush away,
excited to place it in the hands
of someone they loved.
I lived for that exchange.
Their gratitude became my fuel.
Their joy became my profit.
And the money followed too,

Maybe that’s the real lesson here. That healing doesn’t always come from closure, or from them finally saying the right words. Sometimes it comes when you’re too busy living your own life to keep checking the door for their shadow...
This is my closing page. This is where the story of him ends, and the story of me continues.

She doesn’t rush. She invests in fabrics that love her skin: linen, silk, wool, cotton. She wears perfume not to attract, but to anchor herself. Scents that smell like abundance, warm, layered, unforgettable. She moves her body not out of punishment, but out of devotion. She doesn’t chase it, she attracts it. She doesn’t hoard it, she multiplies it.

Maybe I was a powerful rich woman in another life. Maybe that’s why I hate chores, why I crave quiet, why I roll my eyes at anything cheap or chaotic. Or maybe I wasn’t. Maybe it’s just the way I’m wired, this strange cocktail of personality and taste.

I’ve realized something about myself.
I don’t always want to be the bigger person.
Sometimes I want to be the mirror.
Sometimes I want you to taste what you served me.
I'm matching energy.

Sometimes I think about vanishing the way animals hibernate, not to punish, not to run, but to gather the broken pieces, to let the body do the work of mending without apology. To close my eyes and let the cold teach me slow repair. No calls, no explanations, no friendly messages typed and deleted, only the slow drip of self-care like sap rising...

We start. We stop.
We dream. We doubt.
We say: it’s impossible.
We say: it doesn’t work.
We say: maybe it wasn’t for me.
But the truth?
The truth is, most of us quit
midway through the race.

And to anyone who mistakes my devotion for weakness,
may you learn quickly:
a woman who knows her worth
is the most dangerous kind of free.
Because when she loves you,
she builds you.
But when she leaves you,
she rebuilds herself twice as strong.

This is not a war story.
This is not a courtroom.
This is not a place where I line up evidence,
weigh out guilt,
decide who broke what,
who should carry the heavier stone.
No...

And one day, you will notice the shift. You will notice that when someone doesn’t call back, your world does not collapse. You will notice that when conflict arises, you no longer abandon yourself to keep the peace. You will notice that you can love deeply without bargaining your soul for scraps.

Bless this money coming. Bless the work that creates it. Bless the hands that earn it. Bless the heart that spends it kindly. Bless the margins that protect me. Bless the wisdom that taught me to ask for plans. Bless the discipline that will not let me sleep on debt as though it were a blanket.

So here I am,
lighter, freer, softer.
The anger has dissolved.
The sadness has loosened its grip.
The bitterness has turned into soil
for something gentler to grow.
I am no longer carrying burdens.
I am carrying light.

I am building you a future of options.
A future where you can decide what success means.
A future where you can travel, create, rest, love,
without carrying the weight of scarcity on your back.
You will inherit more than money.
You will inherit a model. A template.

So here I am,
standing in the middle of a life
that once lived only in my prayers.
The debts? Answered.
The support? Answered.
The business? Answered.
The tools? Answered.
The time? Answered.

And above all,
I bless You, Abundance.
For finding me again and again,
for teaching me how to receive,
for reminding me that I am not chasing,
I am choosing.
I am not lacking,
I am living.
I am not waiting,
I am worthy.

I do not wait anymore. I do not beg anymore. I do not settle anymore.
Every part of my life aligns with abundance because I dared to believe in the other side of fear.
The season of yes is here, and I am living in it.
Not just for a moment. Not just for a season.
But forever.